其实不知道为什么还是对你念念不忘？已经知道你再也不会多看我一眼、也不可能想念我。告诉自己很多次，不要再活在过去，不要再活在你的影子。

明明可以选择对自己好的，但总是糟蹋自己。觉得自己不值得好的。

搞得自己越来越不了解自己的内心。

应该好好地过。轰轰烈烈地过自己的人生。
一直、一直告诉自己，别再想，何必回忆。

认识了这个他。。。
在他身上，仿佛看到你的影子, 让我无法忘怀。
不想把另外一个人当成是你，但是却不知觉。。

知道不能对他动情，我们只是需要互相陪伴。
而陷进这样的感情，受伤的只会是自己。

因为他真的太像你。

很讨厌这样的感觉。

不论是谁，都好像把他们当成你。

No, it wasn't supposed to hurt that much.

I am tough enough to handle this, just like how i used to be.. I have been through it with no one but just my family.

I am supposed to go through it, to live my life without you again.

I forced myself to fake, to laugh, to handle every single day myself.
I forced myself to never break down in front of anyone.

And I told myself, and the ones around me that I don't miss you at all.

Yet, i am just living in denial. I thought I didn't love you.

I felt like I don't know what's going on anymore, and I don't care about anything anymore.

I am confused, and i don't know how to explain my feelings.

That feeling of emptiness, and feeling that no one is here for me. No one understands how it feel.

Everything seems like nothing, and living everyday just for surviving.