17 march 2011..

My eyes were puffed, and my face was flooded with tears when you said those words.

Everything seem to be crashing down on me.

Those words are like a knife stabbing into my heart.

"I don't wish to hear your lies again."

"Find someone else who could listen to your lies"

"Go and find him instead"

"Let go of your dirty hands"

"Stop touching me"

"I am tired of everything already"

Every sentence are stabbing into my wound deeply.

And the things around me are like twirling around.

Am I really so dirty?

Am I a slut or a whore?

Do I seem so cheap to you?

I was thinking , and til now, I am thinking of it again.

I don't know. Maybe I am really dirty.

That anyone could just touch me

Maybe I am just that despo.

Am I ? I really want an answer from your mouth truthfully.

Last night, you said those words again.

"You really like people to fuck you right?"

Those words are like tearing me apart, making my heart crushed into pieces.

You never ever watch your words before.

So, is that what you think of me?

I don't mind what the others think of me.

Just you! I really don't want you to think of me like that.

I HATE IT!

My heart always seem to be stabbed a thousand times when you said that of me.

I know you would never see this, and I know you would never know my real deep thoughts. But, I just want to release myself..