2013 till now..

Saturday, May 4, 2013

A comment maybe?

It's the fifth month in year 2013.

Nothing seems to go well for me.

Firstly, I am out of job, till now..

I tried to find jobs in many areas, but to no valid. When I try to put in effort, nobody sees it. Maybe the effort is not enough? Been trying to go for so many interviews, but it's really hard to get a job nowadays.

Secondly, the biggest choice of my life. Only some knows it.. It happened, and it already end. I know I will regret it in the future.

But, I know it will hinders my future too. Sorry, I had to make that decision. But, thanks for coming into my life~

During that period of time, I have been in my highs and lows. I know who truly cares for me, who truly loves me. Yet, the only thing that disappoint me, is my family.

Maybe it's karma, because I am not home often. I just don't feel any love from home anymore. It doesn't seem to matter if I am there or not.

Thirdly..

A test for us, or a test of my tolerance?

You..

Before & After..

Why do you have to change the way you treat me? Can't you just be the same throughout?

You treat me so good, bringing me to heaven.

The next moment, you will show bad attitude, and your frustration towards me, raising your voice at me.

It makes me figure that which is the real you?

Yeah, I am unreasonable.

Because, it's a sense of insecurity. I don't feel secure anymore.

You always say, I think too much.

But, I just can't help with it. The thoughts just come into my mind, disturbing me, even though I tried to chase them away.

It is hard for me too.

I just hope..
Hope that everything will be back to normal.