No, it wasn't supposed to hurt that much.

I am tough enough to handle this, just like how i used to be.. I have been through it with no one but just my family.

I am supposed to go through it, to live my life without you again.

I forced myself to fake, to laugh, to handle every single day myself.
I forced myself to never break down in front of anyone.

And I told myself, and the ones around me that I don't miss you at all.

Yet, i am just living in denial. I thought I didn't love you.

I felt like I don't know what's going on anymore, and I don't care about anything anymore.

I am confused, and i don't know how to explain my feelings.

That feeling of emptiness, and feeling that no one is here for me. No one understands how it feel.

Everything seems like nothing, and living everyday just for surviving.